After the emotional of the last weeks in which i tried to regain some semblance of control, subtly demonstrated by a resulting lethargy i will get rid of today, it all turned out alright, midst a cloud of mishaps. I don't really know where to go from here, but i think that's the point. However, i did wish today, after greeting a friend in the street, that i had a huge big kitchen into which people would drop in much like locals at a pub. An expression of familiarity and relaxedness that i honestly felt. So different from reality, that i thought i could treat it as one does when one wants to buy something and gets obsessive about it. The pictures of the huge kitchens on sale and installed in houses help. A goal. Right now the goal is housework :-D